Tuesday - May 22, 2012

Not much sleep last night. Lots of tossing and turning.  So much running thru my mind.  The one thing that is definitely clear is that I must get up and go to mass this morning.  I have been doing that ever since I became "semi-retired", but I am driven to get there this morning.

Filled with excitement and anticipation, I grabbed the pair of "baby socks" and put them in my pocket.  The joy in my heart and the love and gratitude for my God has me nearly bursting at the seams.  But...I am also needing to fall on my knees to pray for the health and well-being of this unborn child, my grandchild.  Sometimes I feel like God has to tire of me asking for stuff.  Lucky for me I know that He does not and he is always waiting with open arms for any and all my prayers.

Tuesday mornings before mass we have the Perpetual Help Devotions.  Prayers to our Blessed Mother asking for her intercession in all we do and say.  These prayers are simple and beautiful and I enjoy them very much.  I used to attend these services with my mom many years ago, and she took her mother a very long time ago.  They are near and dear to my heart.  I was so looking forward to the praise and thanksgiving that they provide my soul as well.

As we sat and waited, no one came to do the prayers.  The two alter servers came out and grabbed the candles, but no deacon or priest came out to lead the prayers.  I made a decision to "take the bull by the horns" so to speak and went to the ambo and asked the congregation for permission to lead the prayers.  They answered with a resounding yes.  Nervously I lead the prayers to our Blessed Mother.  It was so uplifting and my heart was so overjoyed at doing this.  I will not hesitate next time.

After mass I approached Msr. Ted and told him about my baby socks and what a wonderful gift/miracle I had been given.  I truly want to shout from the mountain tops that "Our God is and Awesome God".  He responded that he sees these little miracles every day and indeed our God is amazing.

Spent the day with my baby girl.  She had done another test in the morning and again had the same faint line.  I do believe she is convinced!